A new start

The story is too long to share and honestly, it isn't any of your business.  But I have learned several things along the way that I thought I would share with those who choose to read this blog.  Which by the way is probably zero!  And I am ok with that.

First and foremost, human beings are just that  human beings!  I don't care if you are Christian, Buddhist  white, black, yellow or red, we are all mere mortals.  What do I mean by that?  We are broken, period.  Since Adam and Eve sinned we have been a broken being   We are not perfect.  Am I making my point?  Let me give you an example   I was in the Christian ministry when I committed adultery, that's a little broken don't you think!  The so-called friends that baled out on me, are Christians as well, I don't think baling out on your friend and never speaking to them again, is what Jesus would do.  But I get it, we are broken.  I don't like it! But, because I know that, I am able to respect and love all people better.  Which I think is what Jesus wants us to do, right?  The way our Christian friends have treated us just solidifies the reality that we are in fact all human and broken.  Our treatment validates that and it confirms to me that God, in fact, is real.  What I mean by that is God is the only being who truly forgives and forgets the sins we commit in this life.  There is a caveat to that, the sins we commit are forgiven IF we have accepted Jesus as our savior.  He was sent to die in our place and He did.  So if we are in Christ, God see us through the lens of Jesus.  The best way I can illustrate that is simple; if God is standing in front of us, he sees our sin, hates our sin and has said we cannot be in His presence because of our sin.  That's why he sent Adam and Eve out of paradise.  It's why, in the Old Testament, when God talks to Moses, he can't look at him. So what God did by sending Jesus to die for our sin is so that we too can become sinless in His eyes.  It was His way of giving us an opportunity to choose Him.  If we accept that free gift, Jesus now steps between God and us so that God can only see the sinless Jesus, so we too have become sinless in Gods eyes.  You see, that is why Jesus is so important.  Without Him we have no hope of eternal life.  Our humanness is exactly why we need Jesus.  When I made the choice to leave my ex-wife I really thought that my friends would be there for me.  I expected them to be mad and disappointed, what I didn't expect was total abandonment.  Again that demonstrates to me that no matter who you are or what you call yourself, you and I are human, and that is OK!

I have also pondered what God is really up to in the world.  What is His mission and how do we play apart. I am still thinking about that one and I will the rest of my natural life. What have I come to understand for me?  That God loves me no matter what sin I commit, that God works miracles in the midst of our failures and bad choices and good choices, in other words He is constantly involved.  I don't think He is ever disappointed in us because He sees us though the lens of Jesus who was sinless, as I alluded to earlier.  I think He gives us the knowledge of what is right and wrong and it is up to us to choose what we want to do and we live with the consequences both good and bad.  He has a plan for each of us and this is it, hold on, yes I am going to tell you the meaning of life, are you ready?.....Here it is...Love God, Love people.  That is everyone's calling. I think we as humans try to complicate our mission in life by making shit up, or putting our human labels on things.  I use to call myself a "warrior for the kingdom", I used to say I have a beauty to rescue, an adventure to live, blah blah. I mean no disrespect to anyone who still says that about themselves! I just have a simple command from my Savior  " Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"  Jesus replied: "Love the Lord God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.  This is the first and greatest commandment.  And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself." Matthew 22:36-39

That seems pretty clear to me about what I am supposed to do.